Soulmates & Such

Written on 7.12.12

I had this brilliant thought today driving home from work. Probably led from recent events of love, or lack there of. In a perfect world every single person would have a soul mate.

[A soulmate (or soul mate) is believed by some to be the person with whom one has a feeling of deep or natural affinity, similarity, love, sex, intimacy, sexuality, spirituality, or compatibility.]

Now we all know and understand that this world is indeed anything but perfect. So my thoughts started flowing and I quickly came to the question of; can you have more than one soul mate? I mean is it possible to have more then one person you consider your soul mate in your lifetime. Or even at any given moment that One could have strong feelings for what they believe to be their soul mate? Not just sex, but that reach-for- the-stars-over-the-fence-world-series-kind-of-stuff. After all there is 6,894,594,844 people in this big ol’ world. Who’s to say we all don’t have multiple soul mates walking around waiting to meet each other every single day? How does one know that they just walked by them, that they’ve been walking by them every single day. What happens if you meet your so-called soul mate and they have already met theirs?

            I recently bumped into one of my exes. I always knew he was a keeper but for some reason I just wasn’t ready to let my heart go. I kept him waiting for far too long. For years I listened to him confess his love for me “I knew the moment I saw you walking into Cj’s house in yogas and your hair up and messy that I would love you,” and I just listened. I never reciprocated. I loved him. But I can admit I was never in love with him. (phew! Confessions, This is getting deep) After I ran into him this past week, I received a text that told me how great I looked and how happy I seemed. Of course I felt the same way about him. We continued to small talk, “how are yous?” and such.

[And for a single moment I fluttered into fantasy land. Where I pictured my life with him forever and how cute our interracial babies would be, and how I would be so happy with my overly attractive husband.]

For a split second I got my hopes up. Until I got this one,

[Welp, I got married a little bit ago, end of may. And we are expecting our first at the end of the year.]

I am pretty sure five minutes passed before I was able to pick my jaw up from the wooden floor that was below me. My hopes were quickly sailing away on the same damn boat that He was on. Waving goodbye. Forever.

Married? What. The. Hell.

Don’t get me wrong, I was and still am very happy for him. He is one of the most beautiful human beings I have ever met, Full of God’s grace, accepting anyone under any circumstance, judgement free, and caring to the bone. I wish him the very best and have no doubt he will make her the happiest wife and be the most encouraging and proudest father.

My question arises. Can people have more than one soul mate? In this day in age, people date into their early-mid thirties before they even settle down and get married. So can you go through life falling in love with multiple different people at different times? When do the feelings of “He/She is the one who got away” go away? And do you ever feel secure enough to settle down and get married yourself? Maybe all these questions are directed to myself. Maybe I am the only one pondering these questions that boggle my brain and put me in a headlock of love. But then again, considering there is over 6 billion people on this earth I cant be the only one right?